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Saturday, September 25, 2010

A LIVING LIST?

I added a few things to the blog, the most important one being "MY LIVING LIST".  I didn't want to call it a bucket list as that has to much of a direct correlation to must do's before I die.  My living list is a list of things I'd like to do or experience in my 50's.

The #1 item is to loss the excess weight I have been carrying for too long, reach my challenging goal weight AND to maintain that weight.  Seems like a tall order but I can and I am going to do it.  I have convinced myself I am not going to settle for less anymore.  I'm not going to set a target weight that is above where I was when I was in my twenties.  Why, because I don't want to settle to be above that weight - when I've dieted over the past 20 years I've always set my goal weight 20-25 lbs over what I weight "in my prime" believing that that was good enough and for a woman my aged, it was OK.  Well that's changed.  I can be the weight I was in my twenties.  The only thing stopping me is my mind.  I need to have the determination and conviction to get there.  It will take a year but that's OK.  I have the tools and knowledge and I know where to get any other information I need, there is no excuse for ignorance anymore.  So I am on that road to physical success.  I'll talk about the other list items another time.

I can list alot of same things other people do that would make them feel better with the excess weight off - more energy, being able to tie my shoes without panting, getting up and down off the floor easier, feeling more self confident, and so on.  One of my blog links is to Jack Sh*t Gettin' Fit.  I really enjoy this one as it is humorous, interesting and inspiring.  One item on the site is call W.I.D.T.H which means Why I Do This Here.  It has a compilation of visuals from many readers who list why they want to lose weight.  Some are funny, some are sad and some are just like me.  I'll post my in the near future (I need to figure alot out about how to use this web stuff first).

Today I'm down another 3.  I had a few challenges yesterday in the "digestive" area but I chalk it up to the new foods I'm eating and the fish oil I'm taking.  Other than that it was a great day.  No real cravings and managed to eat well.  I made a yummy chicken chili which was spicy and satisfying.  I'll have that for a few days now since I made a sizable batch.

Now I am taking the few moments I can to get my blog post up while I watch over 7 12ish year old boys run around outside, play soccer and jump on the trampoline.  It's great their outside for now to burn off some of the pop and chocolate they've been ingesting.  Then they'll settle into video games and watch the Sens beat the Habs tonight!.

My weigh in is tomorrow in the Biggest Loser club.  I hope I win for the week.  It would be nice to be down 10 and have it confirmed on their scale. I adjusted mine at home after the 1st weigh in (it was 6 lbs above what mine read).  Anyway, chow for now... funny how my salutation refers to eating?  Cheers .... refers to drinking?

Be happy!

Friday, September 24, 2010

A SUNNY RAINY DAY

Rainy day but I'm feeling great.  One of the nice things about embarking on this journey is the initial change of losing excess water weight.  I can see it in my face and joints.  I had a very good day yesterday eating healthy food and had little cravings until 10PM - why is that?  I was all cozy watching the Apprentice when I got this urge to eat.  This urge formed into a need for a health bar (I purchased the Kashi bar as they are low in fat, sugars and sodium).  I tried to get it out of my mind and drank a gallon of water but it persisted to so I had a bar.  Actually I had two.  I knew it would not hurt my tally for the day (yes I track my calorie, fat, sodium, carb and protein intake daily).  The second one took me over a little so if it meant I lost a pound in 2.5 days instead of 2 I was OK with that.  After I felt very satisfied with my decision and my craving.  I wish I could have stopped at 1 or even a 1/2 as this would have been a positive sign of controlling my craving or urge but at this stage I couldn't.  I know this will come too.

So I hopped on the scale this am after a great night's sleep and behold, I lost 5 pounds... Notably water but wooohooo anyway (for those of you not familiar with wooohooo it is native to Ottawa and the cheer for the Senators).  It is just what I needed to propel me through the weekend and got to my biggest loser weigh in on Sunday.  I have to go to the county fair (that's what you say in the US I think) not because I like sloshing around the mucky ground waiting for kids on the rides but I am the parent chaperon for the first 2 hours.  Then I can come back and go for a long walk with my dog Kosmo if the weather permits.  Tomorrow is a boys sleepover with 6 11 year olds.  The just want to play soccer outside and then play video games which I'm OK with.  I'll be chilling reading a book, watching TV or on the net (probably blog surfing!

So down 5 and 76 to go... Mind over fatter is going strong.  Be happy!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Better late than Never

Well this is a new step for me.  I'm very new to blogging and have only previewed a few but I am a avid amateur writer and have lots of thoughts that I'd like to share (or at least get out there for whomever).  I created this blog under the title of "mind over fatter" since I am, you guessed it, over weight.  Probably obese but I hate that word.  I have struggled with my weight my whole life.  Like many, I have tried many different diets and have ridden the roller coaster of weight loss for the past 35 years (I am 51).  There will be lots of time to look back and reflect, for the moment I want to talk about the here and now.

I am 5.5" and have 81 lbs to lose to get to my goal weight.  I don't look this heavy as per many of my friends but boy do I feel it.  I don't think it's the heaviest I have been but pretty darn close.  As noted above, I am over 50 and I swore I would get my life back together to enjoy this next 10 years but I didn't reach this goal.  I could list the many excuses I tell myself but in actual fact I wasn't ready to lose weight and keep it off.  I did lose 30 lbs late last year but successfully managed to gain it all back plus another 5.  So at the moment I am at the crest of the coaster.

This time though I feel different.  I had a great summer.  Just enough work to keep me busy and bring in the needed finances for the family but lots of play time mixed in.  I took my first two week holiday in over a decade and had a fabulous time at a cottage - eating and drinking to be merry!  I also managed to get some golfing in, landscaping completed, lots of outings with the family and finished a few books.  I am over weight but surprizing not mad at myself.  Normally I would be sitting here in September with lots of regret for the eating and drinking but not this time.  I feel accepting of myself but with that acceptance a different level of determination to change my situation.  I am happy but now know I can be more fulfilled.  I'm thinking about the weight and see it more as a health concern versus the visual beauty I'd like to be.

So this time has to be different.  I can't jump back on the Atkins band wagon, attend Weight Watchers, read another diet book or basically starve myself thinner or should I say healthier.  But I do need support and guidance so I joined a local gym club and a "biggest loser" challenge.  After looking into it I was intrigued and the cost was very reasonable so I joined on Sunday.  So far this week I have done reasonably well.  I ate a few not so healthy things on Tuesday when I was out with the girls but no regrets.  This in itself is a change because in the past I would have either denied myself this simple pleasure or I would indulge and woken the next day with loads of regret and probably slipped back into my old, bad thinking.

This is where "mind over fatter" came from this morning.  I have been doing some research and do believe that weight issues are related to how you think.  I do believe that your mind has a massive impact on whether you are fat or thin; just as it does as to whether you are happy or sad.  Seems simple but for me, I am taking more time to try and dig into my thoughts regarding my weight and why I am where I am at.  I know I will make the commitment to exercise as I have in the past but my normal pattern would be to work out like a fiend, lose weight and shape up, add back the old bad foods and drinks, exercise for a while to keep at the same weight but then, start feeling sluggish and not in the mood to exercise so that tappers off.  Then the weight creeps back on and I watch the lbs and clothes sizes increase...

This blog will be about me - my journey to a happier self.  I want so much more for myself and my life and am excited about getter happier than I am at the present.  The first step will be my "self", mind and body.  I will add photos and be very with my progress.  I'll do some more research on the better blogs I find and use them as examples of what I'd like to add.  That's it for today, be happy!