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Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas All!

Having a great time with family and friends and hoping you all are too!  I have my company here from Texas and we had a Christmas Eve celebration with one side of the family yesterday!  Today is turkey dinner with the trimmings at my Mom-n-laws place and some relaxing time I hope.

Down the 44 pounds and extremely happy with that!  I know maintaining over the holiday will be my goal because I intend to enjoy myself.  Need to keep up the workouts and get outside for walks, toboganing and skating!

Merry Christmas and god bless you all!!!

Glenda

Friday, December 17, 2010

Still Kicking

Not been on the blog for a while but things are going well.  It's so busy with Christmas, work activities and helping nurse sick kids.  Oh well, keeping my wits about me and focusing on what I need to do to take of myself too.

I'm losing weight at a rate that I am happy with, now down 43 pounds.  I'm over my half way mark and going pretty strong.  I have indulged in some pleasures food wise but with very modest portions which I am proud of. I am not depriving myself of the joys of the season but know I have to take it in very small doses.  I am working out regularly which burns off the calories and is keeping my metabolism revved up.

I'm really looking forward to Christmas this year as I am having company from Texas (yes, folks from the warm south do travel to the frosty north this time of year!) and I am hosting Christmas Eve, Boxing day and a New Year's Eve party!  We are also going to a NHL game and to see the Trans Siberian Orchestra.

I'm looking forward to very clothes that I feel so much more confident in and my selection has grown a lot since I fit into some of the things I haven't worn in years.  I will do a full update of my photos, stats and other things over the holidays.  I have two weeks off and am very happy with that I'll tell you.  The consulting job is going extremely well and it looks promising that I will be there longer - good money, great experience and a wonderful group of people to work with!  I feel blessed on so many fronts!!!

Hope all is well with all of you and your revved up to!

Be happy!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Progress To Goal

I caught up with updating my journey page last night.  I've mentioned, I keep a detailed journal of my weight, food log including calories, fat, carbs, protien, fibre;  an exercise log and my measurements.  I developed my own program using Excel so I can chart these things and graph key stats > I know I am a numbers geek.

So 40 pounds lost so far but here are my other key stats with respect to other goals I have made for my 8 months hike...

Total Workout Minutes 
Goal - 12,703 minutes of exercise, 60 min minimum, 6 days a week
6320 completed (50%) 


I appear to be ahead of the game here.  We'll see where I land in January and I can adjust my goal accordingly
Total Inches Lost * (wkly progress)
Start vs Now... 

I am so pleased with my waist change and abdomen, not to shabby (or flabby) in the thighs either!









This is an interesting chart.  I made up some pretty arbitrary goals for my measurements for different areas of my body.  Overall 34" lost and another 18 3/4" to go > this will be a challenge for sure but I am sticking to the plan.

Christmas village ready for set up, now time for a workout!

Onward and forward I go...

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Backhanded Compliment?

So I was talking to my ex tonight cause he comes over two nights a week to spend the evening with number 2 son.  He looked at me and here's how the conversation went...

He said "your doing really well, how much have you lost?"

I said, "40 lbs" with a big grin

He said "wow that's great, how long has it been?"

I said "since Sept 20, about 12 weeks"

He said, "that's fast maybe too fast"

Then he said " well the hard part will be keeping it off"

Now is that a backhanded compliment?  Not sure but I sure felt like backhanding him!  I know that will be the tough part, I know because of how many roller coasters I've been on before.  I know it is the biggest risk but I don't think it will be the toughest part.  The tough part will be staying commited to a proper nutritious eating plan, controlling my alcohol intake and staying active.  That is the only way I will, or any of us, will maintain our weight in a healthy range.

I kept my cool, I packed up my stuff for kick boxing and left saying a fond farewell to both!  In the car I had to chuckle, here he is struggling to lose some extra weight but he is eating Lean Cuisine's (which I hate and don't believe they are a good nutritious choice) and snacking on crackers and some candies.

So what is the hard part?  The way I see it:

The first hard part is making the commitment to change your life, the second is to still with a plan while you change and the third is to live with the plan forever.  I'm in the second phase waiting with great excitement for the third!!!

Keep moving and be happy!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Another Milestone!

So I didn't blog at lunch today, I actually ran out to get a few Christmas presents that were on sale.

Well, I hit the 40 pounds lost mark, I am so excited.  When I stepped on the scale this morning I starred at the number for a few seconds longer than normal and did a quiet wooo hooo cause everyone else was sleeping!  I got in the shower and hugged myself, I felt so much pride and satisfaction that the hard work is paying off.

This gives me a boost of encouragement to stick to the plan and try my hardest as we come into this difficult time of the year.  I know I will have a couple of nights overall where I will let my hair down so to speak but I am learning the important lesson of getting back on the program the next day.  This is probably one of the areas where I have definitely failed in the past.  I still love the quote...

- if you fall down a stair you don't push yourself down the rest
- if you have a flat tire, you don't take the air out of the rest
- so if you gain a pound or two, you can't throw in the towel and give up

Dont' quite, never give up.  I am worth it, you are worth it and the changes that this is and will make on our lives is worth it!

So homework is done, dinner is done, dishes are done, emails are caught up, blog done, now a workout and then beddie bye...

Be Happy,

Sunday, December 5, 2010

A BOGGED Blogger

Wow, I can't believe it's been over a week since I blogged.  I'm been mentioning my time management or more accurately just time, has been an issue for me and now with the holiday season approaching, it's worse for sure.  I spent extra hours this week decorating (I'm 60% done) and doing more homework with my son and the last thing to suffer has been the blog.  I really missed it though so I'm going to try something different.

Now that the visiting consultants have left the office for 6 weeks and I am working with a smaller team, I'm going to get my blog done at lunch.

So I've been doing fairly well this week.  My food is under control with the exception of two meals where I was visiting and did not have control on the menu.  I think I choose the best foods and ate just a small portion but you know these things, you just never know what others are putting in recipes.  I also indulged in a couple glasses of wine at the Grey Cup party last Sunday; the good news is I didn't give into the munchies after this!

My exercise is going well.  Kickboxing is still a blast and my home workouts are ... boring but necessary.  I'm still going the Shred or BL Bootcamp along with 45-60 minutes on the dreadmill.  I am also starting to mix some running with walking on the mill so that is spicing things up a bit > need to keep the body guessing.  My journalling is still great, this is one habit I am so glad I have maintained.  I enter my foods and nutrition values faithfully along with my exercise and weight progress.

I do have my HOT 100 update, better late than never...

HOT 100 CHALLENGE 

Started Sept 23, 2010 and ends Dec 31, 2010 ending in 100 Days in 2010
Goals: 
1.  Lose 36 pounds, changed to 48!  I have lost 39 now, 10 to go in 25 days.  Will be a stretch with the celebrating coming up but will give it may all.
2.  Workout a total of 5 times a week and go to my Kickboxing classes (counts as 2 a weeks).  I am working out 6 days a week, sometimes 7.  I know this is the extra kick I need to lose weight.  My calories are under control and the exercise helps the pounds melt off.
3.  Keep my blogging, my food plan and other stats up to date AND report on Friday's.  Booohooo, this is where I have failed I hate to say; but I am recommiting myself to my blogging journal.

So if you haven't heard from me, give me a nudge (thanks Beth!); it may be the thing I need to jolt me back to reality!

Take care and be happy...

Friday, November 26, 2010

Fantastic Friday

Wow, what a week.  Finished the BL challenge as the winner.  I still can't believe I beat my original goal of losing 25 pounds by 9.  And then this week I have lost 3 more!  I am now official NOT Obese, I'm overweight!  I'm trying to adjust my daily routine to a more reasonable exercise commitment, staying on my food plan and I want to incorporate more sleep.  I cannot believe how much a good night's sleep affects the scale in the morning.  I've read about this but had to experience it for myself.  I can do the exact same everything except sleep and see a difference of a 1/2 to 1 pound in the morning so I am a believer.


A busy weekend ahead.  My grand nephew was born this morning which is exciting so there will be visiting with the family, our monthly family dinner tomorrow night and the Grey Cup Party (the canadian version of the Super Bowl) on Sunday.  I am looking forward to each and every activity.  I have so much more energy and enthusiasm for life now and I thank the Lord every day for showing me the way.


Hope you have a great weekend.  Here are my challenge updates:


HOT 100 CHALLENGE

Started Sept 23, 2010 and ends Dec 31, 2010 ending in 100 Days in 2010
Goals:
1.  Lose 36 pounds, changed to 48!
2.  Workout a total of 5 times a week and go to my Kickboxing classes (counts as 2 a weeks)
3.  Keep my blogging, my food plan and other stats up to date AND report on Friday's


BIGGEST LOSER CHALLENGE

Started Sept 12, 2010 and ends Nov 21, 2010 (10 weigh ins) at my local gym.
Goals:
1.  Lose 25 pounds, changed to 36! Lost 35 pounds and won the challenge at the gym!!!
2.  Don't quit the challenge - never! Out of 39 poeple who joined, only 14 finished.
3.  Attend gym classes regularily. Still going strong

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Wednesday Fun

It's blog hop Wednesday courtesy of Diminishing Lucy



Join the blog hop and check out the list for interesting new bloggers!


Tuesday, November 23, 2010

SIGHTS ON NEXT CHALLENGE

I've updated my countdown to focus on the HOT 100, the last weigh in for 2010!

I've also updated my goal because I am 1 pound away from it!  I'm targeting to lose another 13 pounds.  This may be a stretch but I would rather stretch this goal than my clothes, haha.

So 2 days after the biggest loser challenge end and I am stoked.  Winning was so amazing for me and such a validation of all the hard work I put into it.  I have refreshed my journal for my food plan, exercise targets and progress charts.  I hope to share some of the charts on Friday along with up to date pictures since I have the day off, woohoo!

I've up't my calories to 1100-1200 where I was before the last week of the BL push.  I am very comfortable at that level and was losing on avg 3 pounds a weeks with the exercise I was doing.  I do know that as I lose more, I will not get the 3 pounds a week but that is fine.  I have to be comfortable with my plan because it needs to fit my life for life.

Have a great night, G

Monday, November 22, 2010

NSV's

Good evening all, finishing up another hectic day and getting ready for bed.  I was updating my pages on my blog and came across my NSV's.  I updated them but thought I would publish them for you to see.  I have been able to strike a few off and am close on others.  Some will come once I'm closer to my goal.  Here goes:


  1. walk down the stairs unassisted i.e. no railings, run up them too!
  2. get rid of the double chin
  3. get rid of the chubby face
  4. be able to take my gold rings off easily (close but would have to cut my knuckle off)
  5. feel my rib bones standing, not just lying in bed (close, my waist has gone down 7 inches)
  6. be able to bend over effortlessly, really bend over!
  7. get back to running and run with ease
  8. get into my target clothes at each milestone (1st one size 12 jeans)
  9. wear size 10 jeans
  10. wear size 8 jeans
  11. get rid of all my fat clothes once and for all (not hide them in the garage and then have to go back into them)
  12. wear a black evening dress (the slinky kind)
  13. buy a new bathing suit to show off my bod!
  14. see actual definition in my arms
  15. conquer the B:B ratio (boob to belly 2:1 vs 1:3 and belly to butt ratio), more to say on this later
  16. get rid of the butt jiggle (much less junk in the trunk)
  17. get rid of the back boobs
  18. be able to sit and bend over without being stopped by my belly
  19. be able to bend over and pick up a small piece of paper without sliding one leg to the side to get down around my belly
  20. be able to bend over and pick up something I dropped first, not waiting for the person beside me to do it!
  21. be able to show my face in photos wantingly
  22. see my collarbone! (can feel it but not really see it yet)
  23. shop for any type of clothes I want in any store
  24. feel no pain in my knees and lower back (comes and goes depending on the exercise routine)
What NSV's are you looking forward to?

be happy, G...

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I cried this morning; I cried tonight...

OMG, (oh my goodness), what a weekend.

For those of you following my blog, I have been participating in a biggest loser challenge at my local gym.  The act of signing up for this public display and commitment to losing weight and getting healthy was a catalyst for my journey.  I signed up a week after the challenge officially started but I didn't care.  I just wanted the challenge.

It was a great experience overall but what a weekend.  Let me tell you my story...

I have been doing well and as of two weeks ago, I found out I was in the lead of the challenge, this made me very happy indeed.  I have stuck to my plan of eating well and exercising and have loved the changes and benefits it has provided to me.  When I got the taste of being " a winner " I have to admit I was pumped.  I really didn't have many obstacles in my way except for a weekend away shopping.  I counted my calories and worked out but while I was away the intense execise suffered.  At the end of the second last week I didn't lose any weight which was strange.  I worked hard overall and saw the change in the clothes I was wearing but the scale was not budging.  I vowed this last week to push HARD.  This motivation and the encouraging words from my sister Ricki and Shane really gave me the added incentive to not give up.

I cut back on some calories and worked out twice as hard.  All was going well.  I lost 3 pounds in 5 days, which is what I wanted to see.  Then when I woke up yesterday I had lost 2 more, I was down 35 pounds in total, I was stoked!!!   I firmly believe that sleep along with monitoring calories and doing exercise is important so I made a point of going to bed at my normal time but sleeping in.  It worked!   I was so pumped I tried on my target jeans, the hippy ones in size 12 and ,,,, they fit!  I was on cloud nine all day.  That being said  I stuck to the plan yesterday.  I also had to plan for a jewelry party today so I was cleaning like a mad woman.  By the time I started my official workout last night I was pooped.  I did a biggest loser bootcamp session and the treadmill for 45 min (plus a 45 walk in the afternoon) and I was done, I was so tired I could barely move my legs.  I made a decision that even though my sister was here for the night, I wanted to get to bed for a good night sleep in anticipation for a great weigh in today.

I had a terrible sleep.  And when I woke up, I had gained 2 pounds!  WTF, what's with that, I was stunned!!!    I tried to pee more, I tried to poo,  I took the dog for a 40 minute walk to get the body functions moving, it didn't work.  I cried when I walked, I could not believe after all this work and coming so close I would not win.  I dried my tears and sucked it up.  I knew the reward was how I had changed but to some so close.

I  went in for the weigh in.  Then the next blow hit me; I was two pounds higher on the gym scale.  WTFF!   My scale and the gym scale have been on target the entire challenge.  I kept my head high and left the gym but on the drive home cried again.    After a lot of self talk, I got myself composed and focused on the weight lose overall and the health benefits.  When home I worked on the last preparation for the party and told my story to my son.  After a while he said, why don't I go and weigh myself again, maybe the scale was wrong?  I weighed myself at home and sure enough I was lower so after two hours of pondering this, I called the gym to ask if I could weigh in again.  They said that was fine. I didn't know really what to expect but I knew I needed to do this for myself.  I would be really pissed off if I lost for some % that was in the end measured by a pound.  I felt if I came in second because of some small number I would not forgive myself.  I drove to the gym and asked God for his guidance and support.

I went in and sure enough the scale was 2 pounds different from earlier!  The first weigh in was wrong, even the trainer didn't believe it.  That was the best for me, I was right, I was proud of myself for calling and going back.  It could have been really embarrassing but I had to be satisfied that I had done EVERYTHING I could.  I got home and got ready for the party, in my snazzy jeans and felt great.

Then to my surprize, I checked my email after the jewelry party and WOW, I won!!!  I WON...
I lost .2 % more than my gym buddy Sheila!  Only .2% but that could have worked either way.  That could have been me if I didn't listen to others and my gut.  I was so happy I cried.  What an emotional roller coaster.  I know some of you can't relate to this or maybe see my reaction as petty, but for me, it was a real goal to be #1 once in the challenge, for ME.  So it's done,  I am celebrating with a bowl of carrots and low fat dip.  On cloud nine.....

The morals of the story:

- don't give up
- never quit
- believe in yourself
- think positive

Be happy!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Challenge Updates

Challenge Updates:  The biggest loser ends this Sunday, then it's the Hot 100... Will need to find some new challenges, if you have an idea please comment!  I need to spice things up...



1.  Lose 36 pounds - lost 33 pounds to date, after my weigh in Sunday I will be revising this goal, woohoo!
2.  Workout a total of 5 times a week and go to my Kickboxing classes (counts as 2 a week) -  Still slogging away, for the most part I love it and look forward to the classes!
3.  Keep my blogging, my food plan and other stats up to date AND report on Friday's - no problem with my trackers for food and exercise.  Sadly I cannot keep up with blogs, I have to try on weekends but I know I will miss many special messages, it really bothers me... :(

at my local gym

1.  Lose 35 pounds (up from 25) - I've lost 33 so far with 2 days to go... it will be a nail biter!
2.  Don't quit the challenge - Currently I am neck in neck with Sheila for the lead out of 43 people!
3.  Attend gym classes regularly - Love the classes so there's not a chance I will miss it....

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Thanks Shane!

I'm coming down to the wire, 3 more sleeps and I weigh in for the last time for the biggest loser challenge at the gym.  I'm excited and nervous.  I hope I have broken through my stall cause I've lost 3 this week.  I am still tied with Sheila.

It's a fun rivalry but I would really like to win.  We are both in the same kick boxing class and our instructor keeps a close eye on us.  Sheila didn't attend on Wednesday so Ann took the opportunity to pick on me - she singled me out to the class and encouraged all to encourage me to work out hard, it was fun!  Then tonight we were both there.  Ann asked us what we are going to eat Sunday night to celebrate - Sheila said Chinese food, I said my normal meal because I am not finished.  I think everyone thought I was on drugs.  But this is just my first major challenge goal.  The next is for the Hot 100 and then my big birthday.  I am not settling for less this time.  My eye is on the end goal of being at my 20's weight by my birthday.  I see so much improvement in me but I also see there are a lot of pounds to come off.   The mirror doesn't lie (just wear Lycra shorts and top and you know what I mean, it shows it all).

Now the most important part of my post - I want to give a heap load of thanks to Shane for encouraging me on my last blog to work hard this week.  I was feeling really discouraged because of the stall and even though I wasn't going to eat dumb stuff or stop exercising, he said go harder, I have a shot so go for it!  I had already changed my plan this week eat less calories (for the week) and exercise more to have a larger calorie deficit.  That being said, Shane's push gave me a real boost so thank you, thank you Shane!

Now for sleep, be happy...

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Mixed Emotions :o

Hi all, it's been a few days since my last update.  The shopping was a ton of fun.  I spent way too much money but got some great bargains and made a major dent on my Christmas list.

I did quite well food wise over the weekend although I found it really tough as we ate in restaurants a few times. I am very grateful for my IPhone so I could connect and check out the calories, fat, etc of the menus.  This was a blessing.  I found it really hard to get some ideas of what I could have that would be in my allowance but after a lot of digging I did well.  I only did a short workout at the gym but as you can expect, we did a fair bit of walking.

I have to say I found it strange trying on clothes.  I think I was able to choose size 12 pants for the most part and medium shirts which made me really happy.  That being said, I found myself looking in the mirror and seeing a very fat person!  I didn't like how I looked in many of the outfits even though the tags say I have down quite a few sizes, I looked like I always did.  The feeling didn't last all the time but I noticed it over and over again.  I actually felt a little discouraged at times but I had to shake my head and tell myself that it's my brain not catching up with the changes I've made.

I at least got a few things that fit me better and will protect me against pants falling down on the hips (which actually happened when I was doing a presentation - I noticed I was wearing hipsters when in reality, the pants should be sitting on my smaller waist!  I'm going to take a few things in on the weekend as they will hold me over until I get to goal.

Now for the wait, I mean weight... I seem to have plateaued as I have been at the same weight for over a week. For the most part I am watching what I am eating and getting exercise but feel somewhat bloated and sluggish.  I'm trying to be patient and tell myself it's just the change in routine but as you guys all know, it's frustrating when you don't see any movement on the scale and you're doing all the right things.... All I can tell myself is be patient!!!

My biggest loser competition ends this week so unfortunately the stall has happened at a bad time but it is what it is.  I can only do my best and I want to be able to look back and say I did it the right way and gave it everything I had.  I am neck and neck with another lady so I think I will come in first or second.  I have to be preparing myself for the possible second place as I don't want to have to face it as a major set back in my journey.  Send a few good wishes my way if you can spare any... :)

Have a great night and I promise to get back in the blogging mood!

G

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Can't sleep

So I am at the hotel and can't sleep. I was reapply looking forward to getting away and shopping, sleeping but sleep eludes me! Good time to play with my iPhone to get my blog working . This is my first post from my phone.


Friday, November 12, 2010

Shopping and challenge update

Having a great time, the drive was really nice as the weather at the moment is well above the seasonal average.  Has fun shopping tonight but tomorrow is the outlet journey, really looking forward to it.


Challenge Updates:

Doing well for the most part, the biggest  "challenge" at the moment is time but managing to pack a lot into each day:



1.  Lose 36 pounds - lost 30 pounds to date 
2.  Workout a total of 5 times a week and go to my Kickboxing classes (counts as 2 a week) -  Still slogging away, for the most part I love it and look forward to the classes!
3.  Keep my blogging, my food plan and other stats up to date AND report on Friday's - no problem with my trackers for food and exercise however my blog following is a struggle, not enough hours in a day.

at my local gym

1.  Lose 25 pounds - I've lost 30 so far which means beat my goal with 9 days to go.  I beat the target so I up'd the target to 35 pounds!
2.  Don't quit the challenge - Currently I am neck in neck with Sheila for the lead out of 43 people!
3.  Attend gym classes regularly - Love the classes so there's not a chance I will miss it....

LMAO

So I am off for a shopping weekend and won't be able to post but I set this up to send out as a fun Friday message... my friend sent it to me and we added more to the list, what else can you think of?


Words of wisdom
 
1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.

5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

6. Was learning cursive really necessary?

7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on the Interstate. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

10. Bad decisions make good stories.

11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.

12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.

13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page technical report that I swear I did not make any changes to.

14. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

15. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

16. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

17. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

18. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?

20. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch consecutive times and still do not know what time it is.

21. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!

22. The first testicular guard, the "Cup," was used in Hockey in 1874 and the first helmet was used in 1974.  That means it only took 100 years for men to realize that their brain is also important. (Ladies.....Quit Laughing.)
 

Have a great weekend and be happy!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Remembrance

Glenda Paquin

2 thoughts to share on "remembrance":

Today is a touching day where we pay homage to all the men and women who have sacrificed their lives in the line of duty, all the soldiers who have been wounded in action and those that have suffered emotional trauma.  They are true heroes and everyone should take more than just 2 minutes to reflect on their decisions and actions and how these have helped mankind.  

My son and I talked a lot about this this week and it feels good to share our views and heartfelt emotions on the subject.  We watched the cermonies on the local TV channel and there was an excellent program on our talk radio channel where they read letters from soldiers to family members from World War I and II, it was amazing.  There is a bill being put forward in our government to make Rememberance Day a national holiday which I whole heartedly agree to.  I would love to attend the ceremonies in downtown Ottawa at the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier.  It is great to see it on TV but I want to attend next year.

For me this day has another meaning.  It is the day I found out my husband was having an "emotional" affair with my best friend, in 2001.  It was a devastating time for me and it took me many years to overcome the pain, anger and betrayal.  For many years I cried a lot on this day, actually on the days leading up to this time of year and some days after.  Remembrance Day was the day I reflected on my crushed life.  The crying and sadness subsided over the years but I have to say this year is the healthiest I have felt in my heart since this all came about.  I feel at peace today!  No crying, no sadness and I am happy with my life.  He was even here today spending time with son #2 and we had a chat when I got home after kick boxing, every thing was a-ok.  I have forgiven him and we have a great relationship as ex-partners and parents to our wonderful sons. I can now open my heart to remembering all the good times we shared and what we still have to look forward too.   I am very thankful for this and I am very proud of myself for how I have overcome this life challenge.  

Forgiveness is a choice and is a very empowering one indeed!!!

Be happy...!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Cha-ching...

I am excited, going shopping in Syracuse at the outlet mall for the weekend.  I'm hoping to get some Christmas shopping done but also looking forward to buying a few things for me!

- a nice pair of size 12 black jeans!

- running shoes to pamper my busy feet

- maybe a new purse (I love purses)

But mostly I get to spend the weekend with my sister and brother-in-law whom I love dearly.  We get along so well and laugh a lot.  It will be a lot of walking but tons of fun!  It's kind of a nice reward for the hard work over the past 2 months, don't you think?

Be happy,

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Busy, busy, busy


I cannot believe where time flies now.  I am out of the house about 11-12 hours with the new contract and once home, between domestic "Mom" duties and exercise, the nights are gone.  Last weekend was such a treat cause I could have a little (very little mind you) relaxation time.

That being said things are going well.  I have no complaints at the moment with respect to my commitment and progress.  Each day is a bit easier as I get these good eating healthy ideas embedded in my brain.  I am also doing a lot of visualization and positive self talk.  I constantly say to myself:

- one bite at a time, one decision at a time
- just do it, don't give up, it's that simple

Generally my mood is great and I like the way I am treating myself and others.

I was able to catch up on some blog reading last night but the result was no post from me and a late night to bed.  Can't do that too often when I want to get at least 7 hours sleep a night.

I have to say I was really impressed by so many blogs last night.  There was a mixture of inspiration, happy progress updates and in some cases just fun stuff.  It was a nice ending to the day so thanks blogging buddies.

Chow for now, be happy!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Down Day

I told you, even though the time changed I did NOT get an extra hour's sleep, I got another hour added to a hectic day.  I am really tired today, not sure why but feel like I am fighting something.  Not sure if I will work out tonight.  I already did a 3 mile walk and part of it was backwards.  I don't remember who suggested this retro walking (I think that's what it's called) but it was a very good workout!  My legs can feel it.  Shane you should give it a try, walking buddy...

Here's a good article to spice up you're...... walking workout




Be happy...

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Saturday Ramblings

My first week on the consulting job.  Thank goodness I knew the project manager and she mentioned she was having lunch brought in for the first week.  She asked if I'd like salads and I said YES.  I brought some fruit to snack on and yogurt so food wise I did well this week.

I also had a good week of exercise.  Unfortunately the outside walks with my dog has suffered because by the time I get home it is dark and there are no street lights on my country road.  I have gone to my kick boxing classes, done the Shred a couple of times, treadmill work and today I picked up two more biggest loser exercise DVDs - bootcamp and cardio max.  I tried level 1 of bootcamp tonight and really liked it.  I want the option of doing different videos to mix things up for my body and my brain.

It's really cool here, going to -6C tonight (or around 24'F I guess) but there is a warm trend coming next week.  I'm off to outlet shop in Syracuse next weekend and am excited.  I will do as much christmas shopping as I can but I also indulge in a few things for myself.  I am really liking picking out clothes now and it's only going to get better from here!

I lost 2 more pounds so am almost at 30 gone - I really can't believe it sometimes.  I don't have cravings for bad stuff.  Sometimes I am really hungry but my mind immediately dials into what good food I have in the house to have which is a huge change for me.  I noticed another NSV for me today, I have a great belt a friend brought me from China and before I started this journey I was on the last notch and the belt cut into my "gut".  Today I had to put the belt on the 1st notch and I had room to breathe - I was shocked!  BooYah!

Tonight we get an extra hour's sleep - what a load of crap.  Most of us will wake up after X hours anyway, it just means we get an extra hour during the day tomorrow which is good anyway.  I got lots of housework to do, my workouts, taking son #2 to soccer skills class and dinner with my in-laws.  It's going to be busy...

Have a great night and be happy!

P.S. I ordered my bracelet "one bite at a time, one decision at a time" from jen and love it!



Now I am wating for my fitness warrior hoodie from Bobbie and I'll be all set!

Friday, November 5, 2010

Challenge Updates

Doing well for the most part, the biggest  "challenge" at the moment is time but managing to pack a lot into each day:

Syl's October Challenge
I successfully completed the challenge with 60 minutes of exercise each day plus 21 Shred sessions.  Very pleased I pushed myself.


1.  Lose 36 pounds - lost 26 pounds to date 
2.  Workout a total of 5 times a week and go to my Kickboxing classes (counts as 2 a week) -  At the moment I am finding a way to do some exercise each day for a minimum of 45 minutes
3.  Keep my blogging, my food plan and other stats up to date AND report on Friday's - no problem with my trackers for food and exercise however my blog following is behind and I missed one day to post; I was so tired I really had nothing I could share yesterday

at my local gym

1.  Lose 25 pounds - I've lost 26 so far so I beat the target so I up'd the target to 35 pounds!
2.  Don't quit the challenge - Currently I am neck in neck with Sheila for the lead out of 43 people!
3.  Attend gym classes regularly - Love the classes so there's not a chance I will miss it....

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Homework Blues

Well my days are really exciting at the moment with the new management consulting job.  It is with a growing company making medial products.  It's a new industry for me to work in so I am learning a lot already!  The staff have been terrific so far.

Tonight was busy helping son #2 learning decimal division.  He didn't do well on his unit test.  He had a few mistakes but lost most marks because he didn't show his work.  At first my thoughts were that this pisses me off as he is really good at math in his head but too lazy to write down his calculations.  But after Mom laid down the law regarding homework and study time, he came to me practically crying and admitting he did not understand how to write out his answers.  We did lots of examples together, then he did many on his own and tomorrow he has to show his teacher his work to make sure he is doing it well.  When he gets his test back he has to do it all over as a practice test - this isn't a request from his teacher but an order from Mom.  I also have a better idea of how I am going to check his work more regularly from now on.

So that being said, I only got have a workout in tonight.  That's cool though, the parental stuff comes first!

Eating great, feeling great, but now gotta get some sleep.

Be happy...

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Biggest Loser and a Positive Sign ?

Booyah, had a great weigh in on Sunday where I lost 7 lbs in two weeks, 3.56% of my weight and I won the weekly challenge.  A few people at the class tonight thought I may be losing too fast but I feel great, had a physical today and all is well, and like I said way back in my A HA moment post, I am doing the math...

I have taking to logging information like a religion.  I count every calorie and note it in an excel file, I have a tally for every day counting calories, fat, sodium, sugar, fibre, protein and carbs.  I then log all my exercise and calories burned.  I can predict pretty well what I should be losing based on this information.  Part of this experiment is to show me how the input calories vs output can be modified to control weight once I reach mu goal.

Referring back to the post I calculated how many pounds I could expect to lose assuming stress is controlled, sleep is good.....


BMR = 1595 (just insert your stats into the BMI calculator)
Activity level  selected = 1.55    I'll use 3-5 moderate exercise sessions per week
Calories per day to maintain my current weight   (BMR*activity level) = 2472calories
Current calorie target per day = 1200 calories
Calories deficit per day (2472 - 1200) = 1272
Estimated pounds loss / week = 2.5     ((2472*7) - (1200*7)) / 3500 = 2.5


So I could expect a 2.5 lose however I have up'd my exercise to 6 workouts a week, with 4 of these being pretty intense (at least for me).  All this reassures me I am on a sound plan.


Now for the positive sign.  I don't want to jinx this but I am excited!!!.  I had dinner at my son's on the weekend.  He has quite a bit of weight to lose which I have talked about before... feeling the guilt for him having to deal with his parent's issues, etc.  Anyway he called me Monday and said how proud he was of me and how great I looked and could I help him... I said YES and had tears in my eyes.  I really hope he is serious about this and we can get him on a the right track.  I want to show him a couple blogs so he can see what is possible with hard work, determination and a DON'T QUIT OR NEVER GIVE UP attitude... 


Be happy...


PS. thank you soooo much to my blogger buddies who gave me sound advice yesterday regarding my post and how best to keep up with blogs.  The google reader function is fantastic!!!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Oh My Lord

OK, do I feel stupid... If you've been following my blog you may have clued into the fact that I am a management consultant.  I started my own business about a year ago.  I have been "in-between:" contracts since mid Sept until today.

When the last contract was winding down and summer was over, it was a time for serious reflection.  I took many a long walks to try and clear my head and get moving.  I was feeling very sluggish, my joints hurt bad and I was not sleeping well at all.  After a week or so of walking, I was noticing small changes, my feet hurt less along with my knees and I actually felt my legs were a bit firmer.

It was on one of these long reflective walks that I decided this was it.  I had had enough of the yo yo dieting and I had to make a fundamental change in my eating habits, food choices, portions, drink water, take my vitamins and exercise.

This was when I joined the biggest loser challenge at my gym and through a strange coincidence would a weight loss blog.  Within a few days, I had an eating program, started my blog and commited to the journey of change.
I found lots of blogs I liked and started to follow.  I would spend quite of bit of my available time reading blogs, researching information along with home stuff, appointments, etc.  Generally I was able to keep up with a daily post which was a goal I had and I tried my hardest to stay on top of all the blogs I followed, which was OK most of the time.

Well how the hell am I going to do this now?  I was up at 5:30 and we were out the door by 6:30.  We got home at 5:30, dinner, some work emails, dishes, dog walk, son's homework, washing clothes, workout and here it is 10:20, I am justing getting to my blog and I haven't been able to read one today!  How do you guys do this?  I do not want to lose touch with what is going on but I am feeling very overwhelmed and nervous that I will fall behind... advice please blogger buddies!!!  And kudos to you all for being able to do this...



Be happy darn it!!!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Trick or Treat

Did you get sucker'd in?  Did you have any candy?  Hopefully not.  I was able to abstain and had a pretty good day overall but had some freshly made tortilla chips and homemade salsa today.  Very yummy.

Lost one more pound and had a good weigh in for the biggest loser challenge, there is a chance I could win for the week... that would be nice for sure.

Just got home from a very busy day so getting ready for bed and a very early rise for the new job, night, night all...  Happy Halloween

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Pink Dress Run


Today I did my 5K pink dress walk/run for Fran and Syl.








Here I am in my pink wear...



I went out and bought pink gloves for $2 yesterday and I knew it was going to be cold.  I didn't have a pink "dress" but I dressed pink as much as I could.  It was spitting out and I was going to call it off but we continued, my doggie and I.  I'm glad we did because now it is snowing outside!

Here are some pics from the excursion today:

2 horses that we visit each day

Cows that Kosmo was tormenting a bit, but they kept following him

The beaver pond

And me finishing the walk...

This is the front of my house

Have a great night and Happy Halloween!

Out with the Old

A quick update for now, will do another later with updated photos...

I updated my ticker above as I lost the picture.  This is me at my goal weight.  This was when I was 22.  I will get there, another pound down and now 25 gone - BooYah!

I just cleaned out all my pants and suits.  All the 16 and 18's are gone, some to go to friends and others I am taking to a consignment store (still have the tags on I sorrily admit).  I also found 2 nice suits I fit into now so I don't have to buy anything new for my next contract.   I had to post as I am very excited...teehee

Chow for now

P.S. I wonder why my standard salutations to people (Chow and Cheers) seem to reference food or drink?  Hmmm something to chew on, I mean stew over....

Friday, October 29, 2010

Updates Anyone?

Today was my last weekday at home as I start a new management consulting contract on Monday.  I spent a good part of today catching up on blogs.  Got out for a 3 mile power walk and did the Shred.  Tonight I went to dinner with my son and his girlfriend.  The both commented that I was looking great!  I had a dinner on plan and a little plain popcorn at the movie, the Social Network.

Tomorrow I am here alone.  I plan to go through my closet for all the over sized clothes.  I set aside 6 pairs of size 16 jeans tonight, they are going to my sister's house.  It's kind of scary because when I have lost weight in the past I kept some of the larger clothes - partly because I spend a lot of money on clothes and also because, well you know, when I get fat again!  This time there is no going back, the clothes are not staying in the closet or in a box in the garage.

I'm also going to take new progress photos tomorrow and try on my target jeans.  I'm down 24 pounds and am feeling great.  Some NSV's for me:
- the double chin is virtually gone; my face is not bloated at all
- the fat on my abdomen is down quite a bit, I can see a change when I do my crunches (my inches lost prove it too, along with the size 14 jeans vs 16/18)
- the back boobs (and the side overhang) that used to show when I wore a tight spaghetti shirt is gone
- I can easily bend down and get up, and I can easily get down on the floor and up without the aid of a table or something else sturdy!
More on NSV's tomorrow.  Btw, it took me quite a lot of thinking to figure out what NSV stands for!!!
I have a long walk planned for tomorrow, a Shred workout and the dreadmill.

Sunday it is weigh in day, another long walk, another Shred and then off to my son's place to have dinner and greet the trick or treaters...

It's Friday so it's update day...


My fifth update on my challenges and still going strong.

Syl's October Challenge
Day 29 October and 19 shred completed and 29 consecutive days of exercise for 60min each (minimum excluding Shred); two days it was long walks as I need to rest the arms and shoulders but all is going really well on the exercise front.  Am so glad I was able to turn the audio off of the video, Jillian was driving me nuts!


1.  Lose 36 pounds - lost another 4 this week for 24 pounds to date, 
2.  Workout a total of 5 times a week and go to my Kickboxing classes (counts as 2 a week) -  done
3.  Keep my blogging, my food plan and other stats up to date AND report on Friday's - rockin and rollin along, I LOVE THIS BLOGGING STUFF but man I am finding it hard to stay on top of all the blogs I'm following.  I don't want to drop any as each one has something to offer me!
at my local gym

1.  Lose 25 pounds - I've lost 24 so far after starting Sep 20 and won one weekly challenge at the gym for highest % loss!  I will have to revise this goal to 30 pounds by Nov 21!
2.  Don't quit the challenge - Missed a weigh in but going strong!
3.  Attend gym classes regularly - done, I am a keener



Fran and Syl virtual run
This will be completed this weekend as promised!  And in as much pink garb that I can find.






Oh and Kati at The Great Balancing Act of a 24 Year Old nominated me for The Versatile Blogger award, thank you sooo much! This really perked me up when I was having a down day.  I will get the requirements completed this weekend.

Be happy!